november, 2007

heartbreaking to feel as though i have lost. when your lips have said too much, and there is no way to change the past, the only thing that one can regret, was speaking. when no one will talk to you to guide you, you wander alone. you learn that love is eternal, and forever in the grasp of the one that is loved. once you allow yourself to become vulnerable...the demise will weigh beyond your strength. it will wear you down until you have nothing. you wont be able to eat, sleep or think. you are no longer human, you are a vessel of mistakes and self deprication. hollow, humble, and lost. the fear of never feeling that love again drives you into a wall. although, the wall has no solace...only an immediate impact that can imitate a hug. you can write on the walls with the blood of a bleeding heart. writing i'm sorry, until the word loses meaning. to grow up and face the mistakes you wish you never made...speaking loudly, when i should of spoke within. all great thinkers choose their words wisely, i spoke before thinking. when no one speaks to you, you tend to speak to understand. although, i wish it was easier, life doesn't care. the acceptance of love will follow, the heartbreak will mend, everyone will move forward in the end.

When you sleep, the pain goes away, the hunger dissipates...
The dreams provide a means for me to awake.